Because we have no other choice

I've been missing Show this week. Supernatural Day on Monday got me thinking about it and it's hitting me hard that this is the first September in 9 years that I can't start getting hyped for the start of a new season. :( I miss those boys.

But I'll always be thankful that we got 15 seasons, all of which had loads of stuff that I enjoyed, even my least favorite seasons/episodes. I know I haven't written any posts or fics for (yikes) about six months, but I'm not gone! I'm still here to comment and enjoy content, and I'm sure I'll write more fic in the future. Maybe soon? Maybe?? I'm signed up for the Reverse Bang, so perhaps something there will strike my fancy, or I'll make some progress on one of my dusty WIPs. And writing fic is a good cure for post-Show blues.

In the meantime, thanks to everyone who's continued to be better than I have about posting. I love to see it. <3

Oh, man, I'm usually quite confident in my writing, but the quality of the spnspringfling fics is turning out to be REALLY HIGH and I'm not sure mine is actually so great. D: I mean it's fine, I don't think it's bad or anything and certainly has its good points, but now I'm rather haunted by the fear that I should/could have done better. Well, hopefully it will be enjoyed...

In better news, my gift was posted and I fucking LOVE IT. An incredibly sweet, funny, perfectly in-character fic that gave me ALL THE FEELS and hit like a million of my buttons. I can't wait to find out who the author was. Check it out! (There are tons of other great fics, too, and some lovely art. I've been really enjoying seeing everyone's work.)

T-minus one hour and you guys, I'm so excited I'm crying a little. XD I'm okay, it's largely due to PMS and it's a cathartic kind of "I just have so many feelings" crying. But Show is definitely driving it. I JUST HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS.

When I started watching SPN after season 7 and fell in love with it, I thought "oh, what a shame that I'm coming in probably so close to the end of its run." Turns out I arrived less than HALFWAY THROUGH! I can't believe it. I'm so impressed with how good it's remained. It's not perfect and never has been, but even during my least favorite seasons/episodes, I always find things to enjoy. And my favorite seasons/episodes are just fucking delightful. I'm so happy we get at least one more season.

Hoo boy, my obsessive SPN fangirling has not died down at all since the fall when it ramped up in a big way. XD I haven't been this eat/sleep/breathe The Show since I first discovered it. THERE AREN'T ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY. You can tell my brain agrees because it kindly provided me with a dream the other night that I was running my fingers through Sam's hair. *heart eyes*

I also dropped far too much money on the Stands SPN charm bracelet and the first three charms. So pricey but I LOVE THEM. I hope a high percentage is going to charity, but who knows. Oh well, it's lovely and at least something is going to charity. It'll be fun to collect the charms throughout the year.

More to come on the Snowflake Challenge; I haven't given up, I'm just terrible about actually doing these things on a daily basis. If I get through it in a month or two, that will be pretty impressive for me. Maybe I'll do multiple sometimes on days when I have a chance.

Also, jj1564, your gift fic is in the works! I'm hoping to get it done in the next couple days, but I won't promise just in case something comes up, lol. ASAP for sure. <3

The holiday season has me thinking about the SPN episode that really, irrevocably sold me on the show: "A Very Supernatural Christmas."

I binged SPN after season 7 aired, so I was watching pretty fast. Don't get me wrong; I liked it from the beginning, and thought there were LOTS of amazing episodes before AVSC. I was falling in love with Sam and Dean and the show as a whole along the way. It was a gradual process, but the Christmas episode was the tipping point for me.

It's hard to know exactly why, but there are a few factors I think I've identified. For one thing, it's just a great episode. The twisted Christmas stuff is amazing, and there are a lot of great one-off characters, like the gods and the guy who sells the wreaths. And it's an absolutely perfect balance of humor and emotion. I would laugh at the great dialogue and then cry when, for instance, Sam and Dean discussed why Sam didn't like Christmas. (The way Jensen delivers this one "yeah..." in that scene is like a knife in the stomach every time. The PAIN! The LAYERS! It's incredible. Why doesn't he have an Emmy???) Most episodes combine humor and drama really well, but a lot are more on one side than the other; AVSC is like a perfect 50/50.

Then, there's the Weechesters. Weechesters get me right in the feels every god damn time. I know we'd seen them before, but not since season 1, I think? And we didn't see nearly as much of them in that other episode, and plus at that time I wasn't yet as invested. And, the reveal that Sam gave Dean the necklace I'd seen him wearing practically every episode was just fucking PERFECT. After that episode, I knew I was not just interested in or enjoying the show: I was in love with it. AND I'VE NEVER LOOKED BACK. :P

I hope those who celebrate have had a good Christmas, and that those who don't have had a good week! I should have a little more time to read and write things now that the holiday's over, as you can all see by my flooding your flists this evening.

Happy Thanksgiving to those who are celebrating! And a very happy Thursday to everyone else.

I re-watched “LARP and the Real Girl” recently, which, while not a top 10 episode for me, is pretty high on my list of most beloved SPN episodes, and it reminded me of a story. I’ve been meaning to post this since then, and Thanksgiving seems like a good opportunity to tell it, because it was something I was thankful for.

In March of 2014, I had appendicitis. (I don’t recommend this, but if you must have it, say yes to the morphine. It’s awesome.) They do it laparoscopically now, so it’s not as big as deal as it once was. But it still meant a pretty miserable night in the ER, and early morning surgery.

When I got out of recovery, I was wheeled to my room, still pretty feeling lousy and tired and out of it from the anesthesia, long night, and, y’know, the major surgery. My dad was there with me (my mom had stayed with me all night, bless her, and headed home once she saw me and knew I was okay) and he suggested we turn on the TV. I wasn’t expecting much from late morning weekday TV, but, what do you know, there was TNT’s SPN reruns, and the first episode on was “LARP and the Real Girl.”

It was like this wonderful gift. I felt like garbage, but still I was smiling and laughing at all the geek jokes and feeling complete delight at Dean’s obvious love of the role-playing. I already had a ton of affection for that episode, but that experience gave it a special place in my heart.

“As Time Goes By” came on after, which is an episode less dear to me than LatRG, but is still one I like a lot, and it was like this wonderful bonus. I didn’t know at the time that TNT regularly airs reruns, so it really felt like the universe had just arranged something to comfort me and make me feel better.

Supernatural is only one of many things I’m grateful for in my life, but it is a not insignificant one. It’s brought me a lot of joy and helped me through some hard times. And I’m profoundly grateful for the friendly, funny, ridiculously talented fandom, who devote so much time to making stories, art, wikis, reaction posts, screencaps, icons, gifs, etc. You enrich everyone’s experience of the show, and you are all amazing. <3

P.S. Last night I baked a pecan pie to bring to dinner at my parents' today. Whenever I make a pie, I feel like I'm doing Dean proud. :P